when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Friday, October 20, 2006
9:30 AM
blbeohm
I feel so empty inside, but at the same time, i feel happy. I know its weird to feel both of these feelings at the same time, they are contridicting......but i can't help it......
Came back home today with an empty heart, and when i enter the house, it was dark and empty, no one was home yet even its alr 10.00pm. But i feel relieved, i wanted to be alone to sort out my feelings......Locked myself in my room, without switching on the light, although i'm scared of the dark....... i stared at the dark sky, there were a few stars twinkling in the night sky...... they look so lonely but yet so beautiful at the same time....... I wanted to cry, i don't even know why i'm feeling so empty in my heart when i am happy on the outside..... i wished the sky could just surround me for a while, i needed a break, felt like i'm falling apart bit by bit. The stress had made me numb.... But i have great friends beside me surrounding me, supporting me, that was what that made me feel happy..... i guess..... Thanks..... thanks for being there for me....... if not i'll just fall......
I don't want to see you all sad, i want you all to be happy too...... I feel helpless, seing you all suffer, but i cannot do anything to help u...... i'm sry..... somethings just seems out of control......
I wished for the rain, to fall..... it will wash away my emptiness and troubles, i feel tired...... i want to stop thinking and put myself to dreamland, i wanna join the clouds.....let me enjoy a while before facing the reality................................................................................
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
I feel so empty inside, but at the same time, i feel happy. I know its weird to feel both of these feelings at the same time, they are contridicting......but i can't help it......
Came back home today with an empty heart, and when i enter the house, it was dark and empty, no one was home yet even its alr 10.00pm. But i feel relieved, i wanted to be alone to sort out my feelings......Locked myself in my room, without switching on the light, although i'm scared of the dark....... i stared at the dark sky, there were a few stars twinkling in the night sky...... they look so lonely but yet so beautiful at the same time....... I wanted to cry, i don't even know why i'm feeling so empty in my heart when i am happy on the outside..... i wished the sky could just surround me for a while, i needed a break, felt like i'm falling apart bit by bit. The stress had made me numb.... But i have great friends beside me surrounding me, supporting me, that was what that made me feel happy..... i guess..... Thanks..... thanks for being there for me....... if not i'll just fall......
I don't want to see you all sad, i want you all to be happy too...... I feel helpless, seing you all suffer, but i cannot do anything to help u...... i'm sry..... somethings just seems out of control......
I wished for the rain, to fall..... it will wash away my emptiness and troubles, i feel tired...... i want to stop thinking and put myself to dreamland, i wanna join the clouds.....let me enjoy a while before facing the reality................................................................................
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Friday, September 15, 2006
7:40 AM
Oks, it had been a long long long time since i updated on my blog coz guess what.... I lost BOTH my password and username.... and after a thousand tries i attempted, POOF! I Finally got in. Thank god :)! haha, wells a lot actually happened during this period of time, but honestly I can't rmb them all... and even if i do, i'll be writing a 20000 word compo then...hees and u all will be put to sleep by my boring plus long entry...who knows, i may even fall asleep writing them so haha thats was a bad idea:)
Anyways, exams are coming up REAL SOON, errmmm, let me think....about 2 weeks time? And I REALLY NEED TO BUCK UP NOW! STUDY, STUDY, STUDY! And hey, i seriously need to get SOME sleep! Been going to school like some zombie nowadays due to the late night oil i burned the previous night, and seriously i may scare the lifes out of my friends if i continue like this, and then i ended up falling asleep in class, which earn be a few slaps and push by my friends as they try their best to wake me up, which is seriously of NO use cause i will just pop back to dreamland after 1 second....
Speaking of this, i should go to bed now...YAWNS! Yeah tmr is saturday, and that = NO SCHOOL which then = A nice long sleep :) Gd night everyone!
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Friday, July 21, 2006
1:01 AM
Keep on getting sick nowadays, missed quite a few days of school, gosh, how am I supposed to catch up with my homework????Haiz..... Oh, haha, how come almost everyone tat come to my blog say that its very sad...... hees, don't worry la, I only like the layout to be sad sad one, but I'm a happy gal in real life! Is tat weird...Or wat? Anyway, have to get plenty of rest so tat I can recover soon! Haiz, had been lying in bed the whole day........Sleep sleep sleep, life's so boring these days! *yawns* gosh, I'm tired again, must be those medicine...Bye......ZZzzzzzz.........
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Friday, July 14, 2006
6:49 AM
Haiz, sick at home today,so didn't come for wei lao! haha, hope u all have fun!
Yeah! I getting a new mp3 tomorrow, my old one really cannot make it le! But in turn, I have to buck up in my results , or else.....haiz, my new mp3 will be in the rubbish bin le.....ha, not so serious la, but really have to strive HARD~ CANNOT SLACK LE JENNY! kks, gotta STUDY now! Bye ya!
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Thursday, July 13, 2006
6:51 PM
Haha, a pic of yi yue he ppl's feet!!! Took this when we had our ju outing in sentosa!
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Hmmm, suddenly at a lost of wat to say...haha, anyway, I think this year is the luckiest since I enter St nicks, reallie have to thank everyone of u that makes me a happy gal! Hees, actually you've got to find happiness yrself, even if u will get hurt in the process...I think wat matter most is that u move on with a positive attitude! And Never give up! *( wow, amused by myself, didnt know I could be so matured! Haha, HEY! Dun puke lo, its true!) Kks, shall stop being ego...or u all will vomit while reading this, ha! But this year I realized something, everywhere I go.... Embarrassment will follow....haiz*(slaps head) aiyoyo, shall stop being sooo stupid, I'm like always the laughing stock of my friends la....ei, nope...Its everyone! Hey, I not always soooo childish one, I have my sensible plus matured plus serious side one oso! (gives serious face) OMG! I don want to write more, even myself finds it a bit disgusting! Signing....Off!
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
when everything collapse, Till I can't see my soul*
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
4:29 AM
Finally decided to create a blog after like....a million years! haha, must find a nice nice template now, soooo yupp, later then blog!
Will u take my hand and guide me through....*
Haha, a pic of yi yue he ppl's feet!!! Took this when we had our ju outing in sentosa!
